zombie
I’ve been up for a long time now.
I did not sleep thursday night.. and now the night of friday.. and now the morning of saturday..
How long is that?
I feel like a zombie.
.. i like feeling so tired
so tired your body hurts
but in some good way
and all you can really feel is that you are awake
and that you should not be
amazing how it helps with all the horror of life
i might be hungry even.. and i don’t care
i wouldn’t eat if some good french-cameroonian or indian food were to be in front of me..
that’s how tired i am
i am so tired i am typing this shit
slowly..ish..
holding a burnt out butt on my right hand
while i type
if i goto sleep, and sooner or later i will..
then i will perhaps dream and have more nightmares
and even if not, iw will be here all over again tommorrow
and it will start all over again
all of it
none of it
and then, and then… i will sleep
and then i will wake up
and then i will sleep
and then
i am starting to feel my eyes unbearably heavy and wanting to close as i correct my spelling mistakes as isleep.. i wonder if I am properly toing without ooking at the keyboard,,, because now my eyes ae closed….
wow…. what garble was that… i amrtpoing whjile i am asleep…
oh shit..
i just woke up
wow
weird
ok
but see.. that’s misleading
because this is how i felt friday morning at 5am when i knew i just had to go to sleep..
i felt like this
that i NEEDEd sleep
but then as soon as you get what your want, i have to stop tying..
i am seriously zoning out